I had my 2nd daughter on 8th April 2004 ... it was an 'emergancy birth' in which i was unable to make it to my hospital, and had to go to the nearest by my house... I gave birth a few minutes after arriving at the hospital down the street... but thank god my girl was healthy and well... afterwards I was dizzy and lost what seemed like alot of blood... but stopped bleeding and seemed ok. I left a day 1/2 later (I have a toddler at home who hated the hospital)...

11 days later I woke up hemorrhaging,.. I went to the restroom and it stopped... called my OB, the doc on call said it was normal, not to worry... next morning woke up hemorrhaging, called again, my OB called back in the aftrernoon, said it was normal and to take it easy and not to worry. I literally sat on the couch and breastfeed all day, nothing else, bleeding like a period , feeling out of it..

That night I woke up and had soked about an 1/8 of the bed with blood, went to the bathroom and almost feel to the floor.. feeling as if I would pass out.. called my docs office, left a frantic message to tell my doc I was calling 911, then called 911... they came and took me to the same hospital down the street I had dilevered my daughter at...

Then, they put me on saline , the er doctot examined me and said they had to do blood tests, and then they left me, hemorrhaging, with just saline, no medications, no attempt to stop my bleeding, for 3 1/2 hours before they even called the OB... to come examine me... the whole time I was begging for them to help me, stop the bleeding... of course I was contracting as if in active labor also... the OB shows up almost 4 hours after I enter the ER, she says they have to take me into the operating room to do a D/C and tells me in very rare cases I might have to have a hysterecomy... I tell her I want more children, she tells me to calm down, that it is very rare that its needed... they finally start to give me blood and not just saline (I have lost 9 units if blood waiting)

An hour later they put me under and take me to OR... the doc wakes me me up 4 hours later to say "sorry you had to have a hysterectomy, but your alive"... guess I started to die in the OR due to DIC.. my blood stopped clotting becasue of bleeding for so long... and she wasn't able to try all the methods that could have saved my uterus that she said was "atonic" at that point .

My husband was at home the whole time with our children.. although we had some friends come over to help, I was so out of it and scared at the hospital I didn't think he should be there with the newborn (I couldn't seperate them in my head - our friends don't have childen and wouldn't know what to do woth a newborn) and the nurses kept telling me it's ok, the OB was on the way.. before she had even been called! finally the last nurse admitted no one had been called and that they were waiting for 'bloodwork' to come back to see how much blood I had lost (they had piles of blood soaked sheets under the table from me)...

all and all and amazing nightmare, I am lucky I suirvived it and them (the ER staff)... and now my husband and I are pursuing gestational surrogacy...

I would really appreciate this forum for discussion to get to know other women that have had PPH and hyster. and how they dealt afterwards...

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I was 12 days postpartum when I started to bleed.

god this sucks... 2 weeks ago i was worried about how i was going to keep thwe house clean and take good care of the new baby and my toddler... now i am worried if i can ever have/ afford to have/ kids again and feel somehow less of a woman,,, and am in pain all around

wish i could turn back time, amazing what can happen in one day, how our lives are altered. feels like a bad, unexpected train wreck. (and i'm the wreck)

there must be something good that can come out of all this shit (pardon my french) and pain, must be... not sure what yet.. but has to be.

i hate that everyone is discouraging me from trying surrogacy and pushing towards adoption, (we planned on adopting anywyas, but after 3 biological kids)... these are all people that would never adopt themselves, you know?

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